Finals Russian Roulette

Our grades are posted online. Every time I open the page, I have this fear a grade will be posted. I hold my breath, and 5 times out of 6 there are no grades. Then there is that one time where there is one new grade. I have to be careful not to close the window before looking at the grade because I'm so used to not having any new grades. It's a game where I'm never sure what I'm going to get.